Motivation- Zeke...

Drawing upside down is hard.... but not impossible.. =w=;; This is Zeke from my Edge group... laying in a puddle... which actually there's a deeper meaning to this pic than just that. /sigh...

On Tuesday, my grandmother had a massive stroke paralyzing half of her body... and for her... this is torture. She was always an active woman throughout her life.. and to not be able to do anything... must be horrible. =n= /sigh the inevitable is bound to come sooner or later... but I'm hoping she goes peacefully... regardless.

Zeke is kind of a fallen angel... the puddle... a mirror showing where he could have been... but the reality is... he's stuck on this world... unable to ever return to the heavens. The feather... is more or less... the loss of his wings upon landing... he's not an angel of any sort... deep within him there's a shadow that hides... ... pertaining as to why there's some shading on the side of his face.. and creeping up his left arm.... the cloth wrapped around him is more or less the garb he would have worn in heaven.. but instead is now dirtied with the grime of the puddle he's decided to lay upon.. as he looks up frowning knowing that he's now "human"...

BLAH.. I don't know if any of that makes sense or not... =T I mean, everything had a meaning to me when I did it.. but mostly my mind has been set to ramble on... OTL. I've been super depressed just with everything as of late... and it's really wearing me down. I haven't been quite myself... and I'm sorry to those of you that watch me... waiting.. for things... that never happen.. but I'm really hoping... that soon.. things will turn around.. and my spirits will be higher so I can finally focus on getting what needs to be done... done.